I Really Like This...

I was on Fazp's blog when I hit the next blog link at the top, you see it? Well it brought me to this Japenese woman's blog, and she had a lot of pretty pictures. So I'm just scrolling down looking at the pictures, and she has this poem, or is it a song, I don't know.

I am just another miserable woman

Looking to live behind black glasses

Holding a diary in my hands

None of its pages important

Crazy words written in a crazy time

My feelings

My tears

My little smiles

Parts of me live there

Without fear or someone

Nothing to stop me

Me-Sincere pen- Reliable diary

Thats all I need

Many people around me

But I do not see him

They seem busy

Strange life

Bind us

They never allow us to meet

Forget what I said

It started raining

Right now

All around me wet

So

I must be walking home

Before my tears start to fall too

Forgive me

When I'm talking to you

When I know

You are just an old wooden chair

Can not talk to me

At least

In my languages

But you are the only one

That heard me when I was silent

I'm glad you are here for me

Or so I think

See you tomorrow

Most of her blog is in Japanese, so I'm pretty bummed. If she wrote this, then I would have loved to read more. Of course I'm gonna follow her, in case something new comes up. The link for her blog will be under this blog. So definately go check her out.

XOXO

Addo

http://love-2-be.blogspot.com/

I'm not Sane, and I'm Far From Normal

What most people really need to learn about me is that I'm not the quiet girl you sit in the corner and ignore for the rest of your life. I'm not social. I'm not normal. And I'm not sane. Like most of my friends already know about me, I can be really hyper and talkitive. But to somebody new on the block, I'm the quietest person you'll ever meet. And no, I don't try to exclude myself from people's mind games, I only try to keep away from the fake bitches that live in this world.

I'm not in the best mood right now, so I'm gonna go.

XOXO
Addo

Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetness sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long, my luckless romance
I turned my back on you
I should of known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long, my luckless romance
I turned my back on you
I should of known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive on the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you're just fine
Did I make that easy
To walk right in and out of my life

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying no to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long, my luckless romance
I turned my back on you
I should of known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

So I'm like obsessed with this song. It's by A Fine Frenzy and you should go download it like now

XOXO
Addo

Running

Running gives me time to just think and totally clear my head. Although I haven't been doing it for a long time I'm already feeling so much better. I don't know why but its such a great feeling, 'm talking if you do run, you'll know what I'm talking about. And for once I'm actually looking forward to going to Florida. I'll be able to run in eighty degree weather, thinking about this guy that I really like, who just so happens to live in Florida. And no I didn't meet him online. We went to elementary school together, and as it turns out, I really miss him. So, I figured while I was in Florida why not see him? But guess what, my dad said no! Of course he said no. But whatever. I'll message his mom on Facebook and ask for his number. Wow, I really am a stalker, but hey, he used to be my friend. So I have a right. Well, I'm going to go do something else.

XOXO
Addo

I'm Sorry I Can't be Perfect

Why is it that every time I try to explain myself for something that is bothering me, and I am shot down, told to shut up, and crawl into the corner? Most TEENAGERS today are ignored by adults because they are "Just kids" Well, I'm not JUST A KID! I'm a KID with feelings and hate it when fucking adults tell me that I'm not good enough, or that I need to try harder! Did it ever occur to you that maybe I'm happy where I am! Or is that too hard for all your narrow minds to understand! I can't figure this out, and it is seriously starting to bother me.
Also, I have come to the conclusion that I HATE shopping! Everything is cut too small and it needs to stop. You go to Hot Topic and the largest pant size they have is a fucking size 9! Don't designers know that the average American woman is a size 12! Not everybody in this world is fucking anorexic. And its really not fair to the AVERAGE sized people like me. It also sucks when you want a sweat jacket that you'd wear everyday and your parents decide it costs too much! I got 3 things today, two things for $43 dollars, but the jacket was only $50. So instead of getting those two things, why couldn't I get the jacket?
I know that sounds really shallow, but when you're my height and such an awkward size, its hard to find things that fit, like their supposed to. I remember a few years ago going from store to store looking for a fucking jacket. Everyone I tried on was either the waist was too high or the arm lengths were too short. I just want to apologize for hardly ever posting lately. I've been having a lot of family problems that come first in my mind.
Also, Sophie is 1 month old already. Where did the time go!

XOXO
Addo

I'm not so sure...

About life anymore. Just when you start to think you know it all and it all makes sense, it's pulled back and you have to start over. Or when you argue with your family, they seem to know everything, but the thing is they don't. They may think they have a clue as to what's going on but they really don't understand. They don't even bother trying to figure it out, because they will call you selfish and completely block every word you say out.

Is trying to avoid an arguement, still arguing? If it is, please tell me because I'm obviously obvilious to it. Also, why is it when you tell people you're just not hungry, they spring up and start questioning you like, you're not hungry, as in you're not going to eat anything? That is something that really bothers me. It is fucking okay if I'm not hungry! I don't need to eat whenever people say they are hungry because its not logical. Sorry about that, family problems.

But anyway, we lost yesterday, and yeah I'm pretty bummed. And on top of that we got an award ONLY because one of our teammates had a heart transplant two weeks ago. I mean I understand that the award is given to a team who overcomes an obstacle but still, the team spirit award would have been better. Or the champion's award. (Still a little bitter about it.) And on top of all that whenever I talk to my parents, they are asking me are you okay, as if I was going to do something drastic. Just fucking drop it already and let me get over it right, right?

XOXO

Addo

I Really Don't Know

Let me start out by saying I'm sorry. I know I haven't posted in over a week, but I couldn't get online so whatever. My sister is home from the hospital (thank God) and I feel like crap. Does anyone actually use Twitter? I have one but I already forgot my name. Is anyone going to school tomorrow? I'm not, it'll be too cold.
Well, until then.
XOXO
Addo